Ze Journey

There are so many things that we consider truisms but never consider more than the fact that they exist and are true and wise. I will admit that for me, it is hard to understand how they concretely integrate into daily life... or at the very least they are ways of thinking I feel I should be more mindful of doing but never do. Like:

• Be true to yourself (the hell does that mean, I've been there and it's hard. No one likes a manic pixie girl irl)

• There's no place like home (but I thought home was where the heart is)

• A journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step (I know but transitions dear god they are not easy)

In a way, I adore truisms and even appreciate a good cliche. A cliche is how a young person regards The Beatles' music in my eyes. Something that has become so ubiquitous that we cannot understand the full extent of the impact it made when humanity first experienced it. Like a cultural reset that in turn became a culture-wide hedonic adaptation. I'm digressing A LOT at this point, but I guess I'm trying to convey that there are many cliches and shortcuts we use as rules of thumb to exist and they seem to have lost their impact beyond the abstract. For example, "It's not about the destination, it's the journey". The statement is true, science backs it up. Experts ranging from Psychologists to Behavioral Economists to Mystics agree that having dreams and goals brings meaning. I cannot speak for everyone on this, but I know I need dreams, and I need goals and meaning is awesome, but it feels like life is crazy busy and my goal never extends beyond the most short-term of wishes, like:

• Send these tasks for review by EOD

• Try not to fall asleep in the middle of the day

• Make sure I'm properly running my household chores

There are not many areas of my life where I think, "fuck it I don't care... I'll do the thing even if it's crap". This blog was one. Gentle reader, please understand that I am intensely private. As in, unless I am on very close terms with someone, all they're gonna get from me is the shallowest of answers to anything. I have ruffled feathers in the past with oversharing and being blunt and no thank you, it's not worth it so I err on the side of caution. So this blog is throwing caution to the wind. Last year, I started sharing timelapses of my art on YouTube. These things are journeys for me. They are me doing something I want and making them public to ensure I work on things instead of simply speaking of them. Not caring about how I or my art is perceived. I hate 98% of my art. This is not a call to be told that I'm exaggerating. I'm not good, I stopped practicing after college and just restarted drawing in 2021. But it feels so damn good to suck at something and not care. To write overly long random blog posts that live in my quiet corner of the internet and draw things that get 3 likes and 70 views on YT. It's social media on my terms and growing and embracing the journey without fear. Speaking of Socials boy do I have views on that, but this post kinda went long so I'll stop now 😅